Teotihuacan in Me: Day 1
Here I am sitting. Looking. Listening.
My toes hurt. My arms and chest are crispy from the sun.
We walked. And walked. And walked.
And I felt my feet connect to the ground.
About a year ago...I was fighting some pretty bad demons. Now as I look back on it-I was really fighting my way out of postpartum depression. Granted, my son was 2 1/2 at the time. But because I never allowed myself to get treated....it snow balled. And boy did it snowball.
To the point where I just didn't know who I was anymore.
And I was scared. Scared for so many reasons.
I couldn't understand why I just didn't embrace my life. Love my child. My home. My world.
So I took a little break form the world.
Dropped the insanity and made it stop.
I spent time riding horses, connecting with them in ways I never knew could be.
I walked to the end of dirt roads and talked to about a thousand cattle just looking straight at me.
I felt the rain on my face.
I cleansed my heart in sweat lodges & walked labyrinths.
Then I went home.
To the world I didn't understand.
In a year....I can't even begin to explain how much I've grown.
One of the biggest things I learned out if it...was to be true to myself.
And as I sit here...my body aching...I have gratitude.
So much gratitude that I got to experience that. To be who I am today.
And just like when your car needs a tune up. Or an oil change.
You take it in...before you blow a gasket.
(Ok. Bad example...I don't know anything about cars. lol)
But hopefully you get the picture.
And here's my picture. After a day connecting with myself.
My spirit is full. My heart is filled with love.
And I get 3 more days of this.