Well, yes. There has been something I've been hiding from you for..oh... 13 weeks!!
I'm having a baby!! Well-I already have a 4 year old baby & a husband that can sometimes lovingly be a total baby (ha) but this time is a REAL BABY!
I can't even begin to tell you how excited I am.
It's so amazing this time around.
I mean the first time you have a child... you have NO IDEA what you're getting into, ya know?
I remember reading the book everyday....eating my face off thinking 'well that's just what you do, right?'
I've really made a more conscience effort this time around to be aware of my triggers. To embrace my swelling body. To love the 'me' I'm in-both mentally & physically.
I have to tell you....not that I didn't 'expect' it-because I was so publically open about my postpartum depression after Boston...but it was very disheartening to hear some of the responses I got from people who didn't understand the illness I went through.
From someone I heard, instead of 'yeah-we're excited for you!' I heard 'do you think that is the right choice considering your mental health?'
Talk about a buzz kill.
It blows my mind how society portrays women who go through emotional wars with themselves after childbirth. I find it embarassing that so many are stuck in the stone ages in thinking that it's a 'hush hush-don't tell' thing.
I'm not going to go there right now. Because I'm still basking in the glory of the reality that I have a LIFE inside me.
But trust me.... now that I'm open about it-I'm going to SHARE ALL! haha. Cause I can. And because I know I'm not alone.
My little guy is so excited. And maybe that's a reason I'm excited to.
Here's to Mom 2.0. (Which by the way-is due on my 6 year wedding anniversary!! Fun huh? =)