Who I Am

 

Who I Am

 

Tonite I was putting the finishing touches on a video I'm producing for a client.

Usually the last part I add is the music.

So I tend to twirl through my entire iTunes audio albums in hunt for that perfect music bed.

Tonite...I found myself hitting up memory lane...before I found that perfect music bed.

So many times in life can we all relate a certain moment to a song, right?

And trust me when I tell you....my post grade school life can be put to a song.

After all..I did spend 15+ years on the radio.

So tonite...I found some great music that I remember playing when Boston was a baby.

Philadelphia Chickens is one of them.  If you've read the book, then you've likely heard the CD album that goes along with it.  Sandra Boynton is the author...and groups like The Bacon Brothers, Meryl Streep, Natasha Richardson, Laura Linney, Patti Lupone and more...Could it get any better than that?!??!?!

Another fun find for me in my iTunes was Goodnight Baby.  I use to sing all those songs to Boston to bed.  I actually found myself with tears flowing listening to it.  Cause I had flashbacks of how sad I was at that time in my life.  It was in the heart of my post partum depression.  I had a flush of feelings that came over me.  

And as Boston crawled up in my lap to hear more.....I cried some more.  

Feeling so guilty for practically wishing that little babys life away.  

Ya know...I interviewed the founders of Nest today for Real Mom Radio on Ben FM and when I asked one of the moms 'When was that moment when you realized 'Yep-I really am a mom!?'

And she said to me 'When I was holding my 2nd daughter.  I remember the first child when all I could think about was 'would this baby just go back to bed!' and the 2nd time...all I could think about was how much I had to embrace every second of it because it would be seconds when she's all grown up'.

Which really reminded me... That it was natural for me to have sadness.  My life was forever changed from that moment on.

I can promise, deep down in my heat...that if/when a #2 comes along?  I won't miss one second of their little life.

Cause the seconds fly by. 

And I will never be able to get them back.

And lastly...a perfect wrap up of my mini-musical moment.

Jessica Andrews.

Who I Am.

I remember playing that song on 93.7 The Bull in St. Louis.

Just like it was yesterday.

I close my eyes and see myself cranking that studio up as loud as I possibly could.

And feeling the words.

Don't laugh too hard.  I actually have an aircheck from that station.  Over 10 years ago.  

I remember when I did that aircheck too.  

And yes.  I did dance.  Sing.  Feel like a little girl.

FUNNY.

I even had my own words....

If I live to be a hundred
And never see the seven wonders
That'll be alright
If I don't make it to the
big leagues  MAJOR MARKET
If I never win a Grammy MARCONI
I'm gonna be just fine
'Cause I know exactly who I am.


I am Rosemary's SOMEBODY'S granddaughter
The spitting image of my father
And when the day is done
My momma's still my biggest fan

Sometimes I'm clueless and I'm clumsy COUNTRY
But I've got friends who love me
And they know just where I stand

It's all a part of me
And that's who I am


So when I make big mistake
When I fall flat on my face
I know I'll be alright
Should my tender heart be broken
I will cry those teardrops knowin'
I will be just fine
'Cause nothin' changes who I am



I'm a saint and I'm a sinner
I'm a loser, I'm a winner
I'm am steady and unstable
I am young but I'm able.

 

How about you?  Any songs that take you back to certain times in your life?