I really don't know what it is this week.

But I just can't stop thinking about 'the past'.

I mean, I know that I'm focused and living in the future. But my mind keeps rolling back the time and thoughts of my life runs past my eyes like some old black and white movie.

I don't know if it's because I lost a friend this week...that brought back a lot of memories.

I don't know if it's because I'm finding myself homesick...missing my family.

Or hell...maybe its PMS!! (Women TOTALLY have the right to use that excuse, k?!!?!?!)

Tonite, my little family and I went to the Monster Jams Truck Show.

Boston loves trucks...and cars....and anything he can drive for that matter.

We weren't sure what kind of outcome we'd get. But after he got use to the noise (and the ear plugs figured out) he really enjoyed it.

My husband and I may have enjoyed it more. ha. I couldn't help but wonder how on earth those drivers don't get serious whiplash!!!!

Anyway..when we got there...Matt dropped us off at the front and I went to will call to the get tix. He had a long way to walk after parking-and carrying a too slow 3 yr old is hard work.

I got our tix...and as I was standing there realized we had more than we needed for the night.

So I gave them away.

This man and his little boy walked up to to the window and I got his attention.

I could totally tell that it was a special night for this man and little boy.

So I offered if he wanted to tix.

He looked like he was about to cry.

I love being able to do that. Not making grown men cry..but being able to make someones day.

I use to do it a lot when I was on-air and had concert tix running out of my ears.

I've missed that.

I think I really miss that more than even being on the radio!!!! Something about being able to give someone something that means much more to them to it does to you.

Although..for means more to me than it does them. =)

Then while waiting for Matt another couple was walking up to the ticket window and I stopped them to see if they want 2 tix. They looked at me like I was going to try and scalp them. Nooooooooooo. I was 'giving' them away.

Once they realized that, they were very nice.

Which, I'm not looking for a pat on the back. I mean, I've had bums on the street throw the food I bought them at me before. Cause they wanted to buy booze.

But it takes a long time to find that diamond in the rough.

That one time that you do something great for another'll reap the benefits in return.

And although my life is so much different now than it was 10 years ago... One thing has consistantly stayed the same.

And that's my heart.

I'm proud of the extremes I'm willing to go to give something of mine away.

I may have some issues. I may be a basket case most of the time.

But I know I'm also not greedy.

That honestly means more to me than my weight in gold.

And damn that's A LOT.

Ok. I'm typing with one eye open now.

Time for bed.

What is one thing you love to do that makes you feel warm inside?