Mom Moment

I'm not sure what to do.  I really can't figure it all out.

I have always heard about the 'terrible 2s'.  And yet..I'd always think 'Wow. Glad my kid isn't like that.'

Then it hit me.  Like a load of bricks.  The 2 yr old Terror.

I've been having some personal issues the past few weeks.  Been in and out of doctors trying to figure out what is going on with my brain.  LITERALLY.  It's pretty scary to me-but I'm trying not to let it get to me.  My memory is horrible!  And no it's not 'mommy brain'.  A few weeks ago I had a spell where I started to have insane - blow up - anxiety.  Like uncontrollable!  It didn't help that I was starting a new job the next day.  Perfect timing eh?  I was having these 'zaps' that were causing me to slur.  Causing my memory loss.  After a lovely spell into the hospital-they are chalking it up to the medication I was on.  They switched it a few weeks ago-and my body just didn't like it.  THAT SCARES THE HELL OUT OF ME.  Makes me not even WANT to take meds.  But.... hopefully docs now have their pill cocktail right.  God help my family if they don't! haha. Poor hubby.  He's married to a 'whack job' right now. 

Anyway-about the terrible twos.  I don't know if it's cause I'm just losing my temper-or just that I don't remember that he was like this.  But he's done some really mean things lately.  Matt swears it's just a stage.  But I'm not sure how to handle it.

ADVICE TIME:  So, last night-I made spaghetti for dinner.  He wanted to sit in the living room and I was ok with it.  Knowing that spaghetti & white carpet don't mix.  But I figured it was Saturday night-no biggie right?

WRONG.  He said 'I don't like sketties' then proceeded to FLIP HIS PLATE OVER.  Yeah.  It got ugly after that.  And it didn't even phase him. 

And recently-he's been doing the exact OPPOSITE of what I tell him to do.  For instance:  I'll say 'don't kick the dishwasher, Boston.'  Then he proceeds to look me straight in the eyes and DO IT AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!! 

I have given more time-outs in the past 3 weeks than I have in his LIFE!

Help. I need advice.  Cause I know he's just two.  But I don't know how to handle this.

SIGNED, DESPERATE MOM