So, this morning on Good Morning America, I saw something that has resonated with me.. all. day. long.
Tonite on 20/20, 10p ET Elizabeth Vargas sits down with moms. Not to talk about kids.
But to talk about addiction.
Those of you that have been following my blog for sometime.. are aware of the depression that I went through after my son was born. I've not kept anything hidden in my written expression.
I began to fuel myself after Boston went to bed.. with vodka.
I was so depressed, so sad, so unaware and unsure of myself... that I allowed to self medicate.
I thank God everyday that I finally realized that what I was doing wasn't healthy for me or Boston....
And I got help. I had therapy like crazy. And got on meds that helped me grasp my loneliness... and get to the bottom of my sadness.
4 therapist, a psychiatrist and many drugs later... They all told me the same thing.
"You aren't an alcoholic, but you could become one if you don't fix this now. You are not alone. The many changes in your life has turned your world upside down."
They all said they could see why I was aching inside so much... but I was the one who had to fix it.
And God knows I'm still not perfect. But knowing that, I am that much stronger.
Tonite, you'll find me sitting front row... watching this show.
Because I know, being a mom is hard... and we are not alone.
I hope that it's ok to be so candid with you. Because, I am who I am... and will always be.
I continue to share; the good. the bad. and the ugly.