A for REAL Mom's Eye View.

So I have met this really awesome woman named Kelly.

Weird how I met her..I was sitting Indian Style in the scrapbooking aisle in Michael's. I know. Don't laugh. I was reading a how to on scrapbooking and didn't want to pay for it! ha. There. Tell my hubby that I'm trying to be cheap, k? =)

Anyway... I asked her some fun scrapbooking questions and connected with her. She was so sweet.

Now for the weird part.

I got her number, we became friends on facebook and now we're buds! =) Ok.. so I like to think so.

Her friend Kathy, Kelly and I have 2 BIG things in common.

We're MOMS and SCRAPBOOKERS.

Both habits are seriously expensive.... but both are even more addicting.

So she sent me this email after a previous blog post. (Yeah. The one where I bitch about being fat, out of work, and a mom. Hm. )

It really made me think and embrace today.

From Anna Quindlen, Newsweek Columnist and Author


All my babies are gone now. I say this not in sorrow but in disbelief. I
take great satisfaction in what I have today: three almost-adults, two
taller than I am, one closing in fast. Three people who read the same books
I do and have learned not to be afraid of disagreeing with me in their
opinion of them, who sometimes tell vulgar jokes that make me laugh until I
choke and cry, who need razor blades and shower gel and privacy, who want to
keep their doors closed more than I like. Who, miraculously, go to the
bathroom, zip up their jackets and move food from plate to mouth all by
themselves. Like the trick soap I bought for the bathroom with a rubber
ducky at its center, the baby is buried deep within each, barely discernible
except through the unreliable haze of the past. Everything in all the books
I once pored over is finished for me now. Penelope Leach., T. Berry
Brazelton, Dr. Spock. The ones on sibling rivalry and sleeping through the
night and early-childhood education have all grown obsolete. Along with
Goodnight Moon and Where the Wild Things Are, they are battered, spotted,
well used. But I suspect that if you flipped the pages dust would rise like
memories. What those books taught me, finally, and what the women on the
playground taught me, and the well-meaning relations -what they taught me,
was that they couldn't really teach me very much at all.

Raising children is presented at first as a true-false test, then becomes
multiple choice, until finally, far along, you realize that it is an endless
essay. No one knows anything. One child responds well to positive
reinforcement, another can be managed only with a stern voice and a timeout.
One child is toilet trained at 3, his sibling at 2. When my first child was
born, parents were told to put baby to bed on his belly so that he would not
choke on his own spit-up. By the time my last arrived, babies were put down
on their backs because of research on sudden infant death syndrome. To a new
parent this ever-shifting certainty is terrifying, and then soothing.
Eventually you must learn to trust yourself. Eventually the research will
follow. I remember 15 years ago poring over one of Dr. Brazelton's wonderful
books on child development, in which he describes three different sorts of
infants: average, quiet, and active. I was looking for a sub-quiet codicil
for an 18-month old who did not walk. Was there something wrong with his fat
little legs? Was there something wrong with his tiny little mind? Was he
developmentally delayed, physically challenged? Was I insane? Last year he
went to China . Next year he goes to college. He can talk just fine. He can
walk, too.

Every part of raising children is humbling, too. Believe me, mistakes were
made. They have all been enshrined in the, "Remember-When- Mom-Did Hall of
Fame." The outbursts, the temper tantrums, the bad language, mine, not
theirs. The times the baby fell off the bed. The times I arrived late for
preschool pickup. The nightmare sleepover. The horrible summer camp. The day
when the youngest came barreling out of the classroom with a 98 on her
geography test, and I responded, "What did you get wrong?". (She insisted I
include that.) The time I ordered food at the McDonald's drive-through
speaker and then drove away without picking it up from the window. (They all
insisted I include that.) I did not allow them to watch the Simpsons for the
first two seasons. What was I thinking?

But the biggest mi stake I made is the one that most of us make while doing
this. I did not live in the moment enough. This is particularly clear now
that the moment is gone, captured only in photographs. There is one picture
of the three of them, sitting in the grass on a quilt in the shadow of the
swing set on a summer day, ages 6, 4 and 1. And I wish I could remember what
we ate, and what we talked about, and how they sounded, and how they looked
when they slept that night.

I wish I had not been in such a hurry to get on to the next thing: dinner,
bath, book, bed. I wish I had treasured the doing a little more and the
getting it done a little less.

Even today I'm not sure what worked and what didn't, what was me and what
was simply life. When they were very small, I suppose I thought someday they
would become who they were because of what I'd done. Now I suspect they
simply grew into their true selves because they demanded in a thousand ways
that I back off and let them be. The books said to be relaxed and I was
often tense, matter-of-fact and I was sometimes over the top. And look how
it all turned out. I wound up with the three people I like best in the
world, who have done more than anyone to excavate my essential humanity.

That's what the books never told me. I was bound and determined to learn
from the experts. It just took me a while to figure out who the experts
were.

joey fortman

Putting the TMI in Motherhood with #RealMomProblems from funny & fantastic to everything in between! Joey Fortman has been seen on Today Show, Good Morning America, Fox & Friends and more!